Assalamu alaykum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh
I’ve finally decided to tell you about my way to the niqab; how and when I started and wanted to wear it…
I’ve always had this love inside of me for the niqab wishing, one day, to wear it full time. I was wearing it only when on holidays in Algeria… until back home or back at the airport… horrible feeling taking it off and returning to the normal life style… working in contact with the public. Well yes, ’cause I was working, in a shop and so in contact with customers every single day subhanaAllah! I was always thinking: if one day I stop to work I’ll wear it for ever insha’Allah!
And here the baraka from Allah, I was blessed with a baby (my son masha’Allah), having the time off for maternity leave, not sure if going back to work or not. Things were going on in my family life so there was the chance for me to go back to work (…. how much I cried and prayed for being a “stay at home mum”!!). During those months I started to think about the niqab, the idea popped up in my mind when, one day, my family and I went for a lecture in the new mosque. I knew the entrance was the same (for brothers & sisters I mean) so I decided to wear it just to feel more relaxed.
So, on the way to the mosque, I was feeling soooo well masha’Allah! Not a big difference! If one or two people were looking at me, I realized it was the same “looking at me” when wearing the khimaar only. The difference was that, this time, I was feeling even stronger alhamdulillah!
Back home was the big question: keep wearing it or not? – I was answering this question in this way: what if I go back to work? I’ll take it off… I think I should wait! – I was really thinking about this dunya and not with the right intention to wear it. So, after a while, I decided: I do it for Allah, I don’t care, maybe I’ll die before going back to work… who knows??? ….
… and alhamdulillah, after a month or so I finally had the chance to choose to NOT go back to work, wearing my niqab and feeling it as a reward of my Lord for putting my trust in Him… Allahu Akbar!
7 responses so far ↓
ammena // November 23, 2009 at 7:17 pm |
masha’allah well done sis
I have a friend who wears it everywhere except when she gets to work. She wears it to work, when she finishes and everywhere else… just not while shes working
muslimah trying to home edu // November 28, 2009 at 12:43 pm |
Assalamu alaykum sister
you know my answer to this. Mash’Allah for your decision to do it for Allah only. I had this mind since ever. I wish one day I can do it too for Allah.
Insh’Allah. For me it’s really one of the next step in growing in this beautiful deen.
Jazakillah for sharing.
wa alaykum assalam
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um almujahid // December 6, 2009 at 12:54 pm |
assalamu alaykum sisters,
jazakhum Allahu khayran for your comments!
Ammena, I hope one day your friend will wear it at all times insha’Allah!
sis muslimah, you are in my du’as!! Believe me, it’s not difficult, the base is the “intention”… but I guess you know that already masha’Allah
Hugs to both of you!
henia // December 10, 2009 at 5:10 pm |
Essalaamu aleikoum
Wishing the best for you sis since I know this is big step machallah!
Fruitful Fusion // December 13, 2009 at 5:28 pm |
Assalaamu Alaykum,
I read this post when you first posted it but didn’t have time to comment that day and forgot about it later! I wanted to say Jazakillahu khayran sis for sharing such a big step with us! Ma sha Allah!
xxx
Aisha TTI // January 29, 2010 at 4:24 am |
salam aleikum Ukhti
That was very inspiring…
JazakiAllah khair for sharing
waaleikum salam
um almujahid // January 29, 2010 at 12:48 pm |
wa alaykum salam
sorry to reply so late! Jazakhum Allahu khayran!
Aisha, you are in my du’as!!
hugs to all!!!!